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2006-06-25 + 11:51 a.m.

a new me?

you ran off to another, swearing you are only friends. what am i supposed to believe if you hide your outings with him from me.
i do not not know if i am more upset with you or myself for allowing you to hurt me. oh how i wish i were away.

I am afraid of the days to come. I know I will be very lonely and sad. I have finally decided to end any contact with Jeremy. Even when we are broken up he hurts me. I know my life will be better without him. I love him that is what hurts the most. I do not think he ever understood to what level I love him. I do not think I ever knew truly to what level he loved me. He told me that even if I decide to leave him he would always be there waiting for me. I am not quite sure if I believe that.

Don't hold on but don't let go I know it's so hard You've got to try to trust yourself I know it's so hard, so hard... --kt tunstall

I need to trust myself again.

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