2006-07-05 + 1:01 p.m.
it's hidden in the trees
On recent events, what is going on?
There has been a lot of tears. Sleepless nights wondering where he is at. More promises were broken thereafter. I then realize and tell myself that he is not worth my time, and tears. I then decide to have fun and find it in one night stands.
He calls me later telling me that he has seen the errors of his ways that he does not want to lose me. What am I supposed to do? I miss him so much. I want him near, feel him against my skin. While he whispers his secrets into my ear. But it will all be a fairytale, like it has always been.
When I really think about my situation. I think I rather be single. Sometimes it seems impossible, and illogical for there to be someone else out there for me, someone who will make me happy than I am now. Is it possible that this world would be that kind to me? Would it bother to set someone aside for me? Someone that would make me smile just at the mere sight of him? However my friends word have a promising tone; all I can do now is just wait. Wait and see if one day I do come upon that special someone for me. That someone that can smile just at the mere sight of him.
As for “him”, I think I am gradually letting him go. I’ll scatter the ashes of our memories among the graves of the broken-hearted.
School is starting soon and I have not registered for my classes. I am slacking off really bad. I should get to it late this week or for sure next week. Then again we all use the vague promise of tomorrow. There is a tone of honest conviction to it.
