2006-07-22 + 2:03 p.m.
protect me from what i want
I have learned to hate someone. This is a new feeling for me. Its a sick concotion of anger, rage, and a motivation to kill and I want to laugh while doing it. I do not like this. I have never allowed anyone to grow feelings within me. Except Jeremy. The cheating bastard I allowed myself to love. However I am not talking about him. I hate someone else. Everytime I see him I turn into someone else that has no control.
I know this feeling will die in me, eventually. I know I am better than him, I know.
